Morning contemplations Thursday
I've been up for about an hour and just played on the computer. I've been wanting to start my mornings again with the morning prayers and meditation but something goes into resistance. For now I am just listening to see what this is about.

Something in me resists starting my day. I think it is something old because consciously I am excited to start my day and when I wake up and do my prayers and meditate it feels really good. The computer is at least an improvement over lying in the dark not wanting to start my day and then my mind just starts rambling aimlessly.

I always find it interesting when we resist what feels good and what we know is also good for us. If what is good for us is hard or painful in some way that makes sense but we have these illogical circuits in the brain that resist stuff that feels good and is good for us. So we resist exercise when we feel great from it but can't resist the chocolate cookie.

It would seem that both the cookie and the exercise, assuming it is not overdoing, both make us feel good and the exercise feel good lasts longer. So why do we gravitate to one and resist the other. I used exercise because I grew up a reading coach potato, others have something else.