Morning Contemplations Sunday
This morning I have been contemplating how I may have a fixed view of myself that needs to change. I have a very busy life. Everything is enjoyable. My livelhood involves four areas - my Mom, HR Block, petsitting and my classes and workshops. It's been dificult for me to juggle and I get schedules confused - not good.

The other day I was talking to a friend about being an introvert - an INFP for you Myers Briggs folks. Not only am I an INFP but in my brain waves, the ratio of theta (slow, dreamy, creative) waves to my beta (faster focused) waves is so high that I am actually quite far into the autistic spectrum. So I've taken it for granted that this type of life is not appropriate for me.

But it is my life. I am going to attempt to change my view of myself to one of "I can do this." I've made my physical life very small in a good way. I rarely leave Venice, which is so beautiful that's not a sacrifice. With one roommate and one more on the way I will eventually pull out of the financial hole which will open up more space in my life. I can be very connected with friends all over the world without leaving my bedroom, thanks to facebook.

Perelandra came out with a new essence that is helping my focus and concentration. I really think if I stop holding on to my belief that this is too much for me, I will relax and handle it all.