Jillaurie (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} deerdancer22) wrote,@ 2009-04-23 06:34:00 |
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Morning Contemplation
This is Malchut of Gevurah of the Omer - the foundation of discipline. As I contemplated this I realized that this is what my life is all about at this point. I never created a life just for me. It was always for me and my partner. There was a way, with a woman's conditioning that the emphasis was more on the partner than me.
As I look at my life right now, I suddenly realized I am creating the foundations of a positive life, a positive discipline. Part of discipline is knowing what to accept and what to reject and to follow through on that knowledge.
What I am accepting is creating a home that is fulfilling and sustains me. I have my little world I created in the back of the house and realize that is all I need. We've been conditioned to think we need all this space, houses getting bigger and bigger, closets the size of what used to be bathrooms and bathrooms the size of what used to be master bedrooms. And I won't even go there for the size of master bedrooms!
For me this distorted my sense of proportion. I thought I needed a whole house but I don't. My space is so perfect for me with big windows facing nature and the sun. And knowing this I am creating another foundation. I discovered I really enjoy having roommates. It's fun and it simplifies my life as I have help with the house and the yard, which having CFS is very good.
So I realize even if I could downsize to a little condo I"d rather have my house and yard and roommate.
The next Malchut of Gevurah is my livelihood. I am reaching out again to do counseling, especially with astrology. I will have my first consultation over Skype with a FB friend overseas! I am planning soon to look for sponsors for going to chaplaincy school which really fits who I am. In the meantime time I am very disciplined in creating networks and doing volunteering in the areas I want to work.
My next Malchut of Gevurah is creating organic gardens for food and flowers, bees, hummingbirds, and butterflies. This is a spiritual foundation for me as well as practical. So I am feeling very good about my Malchut of Gevurah.
This is Malchut of Gevurah of the Omer - the foundation of discipline. As I contemplated this I realized that this is what my life is all about at this point. I never created a life just for me. It was always for me and my partner. There was a way, with a woman's conditioning that the emphasis was more on the partner than me.
As I look at my life right now, I suddenly realized I am creating the foundations of a positive life, a positive discipline. Part of discipline is knowing what to accept and what to reject and to follow through on that knowledge.
What I am accepting is creating a home that is fulfilling and sustains me. I have my little world I created in the back of the house and realize that is all I need. We've been conditioned to think we need all this space, houses getting bigger and bigger, closets the size of what used to be bathrooms and bathrooms the size of what used to be master bedrooms. And I won't even go there for the size of master bedrooms!
For me this distorted my sense of proportion. I thought I needed a whole house but I don't. My space is so perfect for me with big windows facing nature and the sun. And knowing this I am creating another foundation. I discovered I really enjoy having roommates. It's fun and it simplifies my life as I have help with the house and the yard, which having CFS is very good.
So I realize even if I could downsize to a little condo I"d rather have my house and yard and roommate.
The next Malchut of Gevurah is my livelihood. I am reaching out again to do counseling, especially with astrology. I will have my first consultation over Skype with a FB friend overseas! I am planning soon to look for sponsors for going to chaplaincy school which really fits who I am. In the meantime time I am very disciplined in creating networks and doing volunteering in the areas I want to work.
My next Malchut of Gevurah is creating organic gardens for food and flowers, bees, hummingbirds, and butterflies. This is a spiritual foundation for me as well as practical. So I am feeling very good about my Malchut of Gevurah.
